Ramadhan
Ramadhan kembali lagi. I feel grateful coz I can still experience this Ramadhan. Life’s short right, who knows we can still be here in the next Ramadhan. I’ve always had the same feelings every year since I was a teenager, oh well I’m no longer a teenager now! heheh. Last friday, after sahur, since most of my housemates ‘cuti’, I was the only one lah sahur, so I stayed in front of the TV, watching Al-Kuliyyah, hehe, I havent watch it for so long, and bulan puasa kadang2 terasa muhasabah diri amat2. And the title was about Nazak. Kinda creepy, 5 in the morning, dengar ceramah macam tu, and since there was a recent death of one MMU student who died coz of neuro complication on the first day of Ramadhan. She was all fine and suddenly she woke up one morning, couldnt see anything and the doc suspected there was a blood clog in her brain, and she died few days later, Al-Fatihah to her. I felt so scared, for which will I be able to tempis godaan syaitan ketika menghadapi sakaratul maut, and I felt that my amalan tidak mencukupi utk menghadapi itu semua. Huhu. But I guess during Ramadhan, syaitan dah kena ikat, so tah terlepas lah godaan syaitan waktu tu kut, tah la I’m not that sure about this, kena tanya orang yg lagi tahu, dah lupa actually tp yg ingat2 lupa, kematian di bulan Ramadhan tu baik. After I got back home, my mom told me that one of my relatives, kembali ke Rahmatullah juga, and my dad was already in Kelantan so he visited her, Al-Fatihah to her too. Allah lebih menyayangi mereka. She was my arwah uncle’s mother in law and I remembered I met her the last time I went back to Kelantan. Its just so sad coz that seems the last time I met her rupanya and I was talking2 to her that day. Takziah for both family.
