Me, Myself and I

I was filling up my fuel at a petrol station nearby my house last Sunday. Well I suppose that it’s a layan diri thingy but there are still workers at the pump station. So there’s one guy (one of the workers) came to my pump and ask me to open up the tank. I was like oh takpe lah ada orang isikan minyak coz normally when I go there, they’ll just ask me to pay to them and they’ll fill it up for me, macam zaman sebelum layan diri lah. I thought macam tu jugak la tapi dia tak amik duit tu, and he’s giving a look like plain, takde perasaan, macam pelik lah, dahla tak respon bila org tanya. Oklah fine bayar kat dalam lah, tak kisah la coz mmg selalu buat macam tu kan. Masa kat dalam tu pulak the cashier girl offered me to buy the Ferrari series tu pulak, and I actually bought 2 of them! hehe, takde keje buang duit betul! Nak buat koleksi lah kunun. Oh, sebelum tu rasanya dah bukak the tank tp bila sampai kat pump tu dah tutup balik plak. Ape2 je lah so bukak la balik, and this guy isikan la. Sebenarnya rasa awkward sikit bila orang isikan minyak coz I’m not sure I should tip him or not, or whatever lah but normally I dont lah coz I dont know. Tak reti lah nak tip2 orang ni. Pastu tak tau nak buat apa masa org tu isikan minyak. Mamat ni pulak pelik lah, masa minyak dah cukup RM50, dah berenti dah minyak tu, dia tak buang2 lagi pump tu, pastu he gave the same plain look mcm nak bende ke ape tah, tak paham. Pastu duk tekan2 lagi, ye lah tau lah ada lagi excess fuel kat dalam tu so dia tekan la tp buat kejap2 dah la ni lama betul. Pastu bukannya tekan selalu pun, duk tgk dgn muka pelik tu pastu tekan. Pelik beno. Bila dah habis isi tu, I went into my car balik lah, nak blah la kan and he suddenly came to my door and ask me ‘taknak cuci cermin?’, macam uik? baru sekarang nak tanya, time org dah nak blah, selalunya masa kita isi minyak tu la dia cuci.

Kebetulan pulak, I’ve just finished doing my own car wash that day. Penat ok, buat waxing kereta sendiri, I was with the car for the whole day hari tu, from 10 am till 4 pm, duk basuh kereta coz it was so dirty because of this evil tree at my parking lot in Cyberia. Ha, nak cerita pasal parking lot pulak. Ada pokok kat my lot yg mengeluarkan buah2an pelik dan jatuh menimpa keretaku menyebabkan keretaku huduh sekali. Haritu, pegi hantar carwash, dah licin ni kereta, balik2 parking kat situ tak sampai sejam, dah kena buah pokok tu. Taktau lah buah apa, tapi bila dia kena atas kereta, jadik macam tar. And it actually became acidic dan menyebabkan cat keretaku rosak! Jahat punya pokok. Pelik betul orang landscaping kat Cyberia ni, tanam pokok tu kat parking lot. Memang lah teduh, tapi tak fikir consequences bila pokok tu membesar and apakah buah yang akan dia luruhkan. kalau bunga boleh terima lagi tapi pokok ni pelik. So I did my own carwash nak buang lah tompok2 hitam dari pokok tu, sangat susah! Sampai macam nak putus asa je buat. Pastu pulak gatal nak wax the whole kereta, igt nak taruk wax to those areas je, tapi sebab dah bengang sangat buat kat area yg kena tu, trus g wax satu kereta. During waxing takda apa2 sangat lah, tapi bila nak sapu balik tu, Tuhan je tau memenatkan betul, dahla dah tengah hari. Habis je waxing, mak pulak panggil suh masak tengah hari. Adoih, dia suh masak masakan Thai yang dah blaja ngan makcik2 yang datang aritu, Pakphik camtulah namanya, bukan paphrik. Dahla dah igt2 lupa resepi tu, sib baik jadi la jugak. Hoho, lepas tu pulak tak habis lagi ni bab kereta, after lunch sambung vaccuum pulak. Ada pulak burung bertuah sudah meninggalkan cenderamata ke atas keretaku yang baru je nak bersih. Haha, sapu je lah balik.

Ha, sambung pulak kisah pump guy, lepas dia tanya nak cuci cermin, I said lah ‘baru je cuci kereta tadi, tak payahlah’. Pastu boley pulak tanya lagi, ‘nak servis kereta? minyak hitam, enjin taknak check?’ Haih, baru je hantar kereta g servis minggu lepas. Pelik la dia ni, tanya lagi, ‘muktamad ? taknak servis, cuci tingkap?’. Wah, siap ada muktamad tu, macam who wants to be a millionaire pulak. Huhu, I dont know lah this guy bangladeshi ke apa ke and I said la taknak, some more, I couldnt hear him that much coz he’s talking in a very soft voice, dan ditambah lagi talking to my right ear, u know, I was already in my car, nak tutup pintu and tiba2 dia datang kat pintu tu, so of courselah he’s talking to my soundless(betul ke tak term ni, hehe) ear. And he still gave the plain look with deep meaning macam nak duit ke ape ke, tapi still tak reti nak bagi tip, kena bagi ke? Pelik lah dia tu, so I just drove off coz I was already on my way to Cyberjaya. Sampai rumah CJ, tanya Syikin, my housemate coz aritu dia pernah kerja kat petrol station, and she said takpayah kalau utk isi minyak je, kalau dia cucikan cermin ke baru lah bagi. So I guess that guy was asking for some tip kot sebab tu tanya nak cuci cermin semua tu sbb nak tip lah tu kot. Tapi still tak reti, haha, I’m still a student, mana ada duit banyak lagi nak bg tip kat org ni. Even Kak Nin pun tak reti nak tip orang masa kat hotel. I just know how to give sedekah je. Hehe, kalau kat KL tu nampak orang mintak sedekah kadang2 bagi la 20 sen ke, kesian pulak. Tapi org yg keje kat petrol station ni, macam taktau lah.. Lain plak, yg tu sedekah, yg ni tip. Tahlah, confuse.

    Result dah keluar! Well, actually I’ve checked my result since last week but they only show the Pass Fail. Alhamdulillah I pass all of the subjects, and my GPA increased. Somehow, I’m not that satisfied with the result lah, didnt reach my target actually. But I guess that’s good coz at last it increased and lagipun, I did thought I did very bad during the exams. I somehow have this problem of getting blank during the exams. I only got an A for Technical Communication, haha, which is not the core subject and it is mostly of writing essays and bla bla.. English subject something like that. Huhu, what to do, that’s the only paper which I think I can do very well, eventho I only spend a day and few hours to study that subject. For the rest, I was already very dissapointed after those exams for being blank coz I did try very hard to study them eventho I only did that at the eleventh hour, hehe, my fault jugak. I think I dont want to blame the ear problem anymore, eventho it did disturbed me during the study + exam week but I guess it’s me yang kena brubah. Dah last minute baru terhegeh2. Tolong lah umi, study consistently. Huhu, Engineering is not that easy to cover up everything at the eleventh hour, unless u r very genius. I only have 2 years to complete my studies and I really need to increase my CGPA. Chaiyok chaiyok!

    Ok as of my title of this entry - penat penat, it has been a tiring week for me. Well, not a, but two weeks. Last week, I followed Ayah to Kelate, balik kampung to see my grandmother. Alhamdulillah, she’s getting better now, can walk and go to the toilet by herself. She was very sick for the past few months, tak boleh bangun and was admitted to the hospital. We were in Kelate for a couple of days. My uncles from Pattani came over to visit my grandmother, Tok We. Tok We’s actually their stepmother. Well I have a very complicated family actually. My grandfather married quite a few times which I cant really remember, huhu, but he only have children with 4 of his wives, so these uncles are of the same father of my dad. My grandmother married twice, which makes my family wider with uncles and aunties from the different grandmother and same grandfather and vice versa. Huhu, in addition the same thing happen in my mother side which both grandparents married more than once, and so happen to some of the stepgrandparents in which I’ll have cousin lain datuk lain nenek. Haha. Complicated sungguh! As of my dad’s side, most of his siblings on his father’s side are in Southern Thai. Sometimes I don’t even know who r my cousins in Thailand coz there are too many of them. Thank god most of my uncles and aunties did not follow their father’s step of getting married more than once, it only happen to one or two of them, hehe if not I’ll have more cousins that I did not recognize. Dengan yg ada sekarang pun tak ingat apatah lagi kalau jadi macam tu. Wah, a lot of history here, I guess my entry will be very long too this time. To those who actually read everything, rajin betul anda. Thanks anyways.

So these uncles actually planned to stay in Kelate for one of two days but somehow, knowing that my dad’s there, they decided to follow my dad to KL@PJ. Actually I think my dad was pointing out that he wanted to find anybody who wanted to help him paint the fence for my sister’s coming engagement and later wedding, and they actually offered themselves. Huhu, I was quite shocked coz well, one of my uncles is quite old, he’s 81, older than my nenek but I’m surprised that he did manage to cat pagar dengan jayanya. Ok, so my other uncles at that kampung also offered to come and help while visiting KL. It’s good to have such helpful men in my family. :D. And so they came over last weekend and immediately start their work the next day. Few days later, another two of my dad’s paternal siblings datang jugak which is one of them is my dad’s one and only sister with the same parents who lived in Narathiwat. So it’s kinda a gathering of the brothers and sisters from 2 countries. Heheh, my other uncle which came later with his wife and daughter and cucu lived in Kelantan so I met them quite often except for his daughter coz she lived in Golok. So there it goes my Thai relatives in my house.

I’m happy coz there were lots of relatives at home which makes my break is not that boring but its kinda tiring jugak tapi nasib baik there were ‘tukang masak’ which is my aunts over so I don’t have to worry to think of what to cook. Hoho, tolong2 je lah. I also had to become the driver since all of them couldn’t fit in a car when they want to jalan2. There was one day when we went to my cousin’s house in Shah Alam and later my uncle wanted to visit his grand daughter in Semenyih. We don’t really know the way to her place so my dad called her and the person who gave the direction gave us a wrong one. Huhu, penat tau drive, that was the first time which I drive for the whole day. Ha, actually before that I brought some of them to KLCC by LRT and then we headed directly to Shah Alam by car pulak. We were in the Kajang Silk and reach a junction of Jalan Semenyih-Kajang. The person asked us to just continue the journey till Sg Long and sedar2 kitorg dah in Cheras. Jauh betul, so my dad took another road and then we were in Kajang and later we reached Semenyih. We actually stopped by for Asar prayers in Masjid Putrajaya after azan and we reached Semenyih nearly dawn. Ayah said that we were actually traveling dalam nombor 8. Dahla I was convoying my dad at the back so kekadang tu bengang coz kejap pegi kanan, kejap pegi kiri. Hoho. But that was quite an experience lah.

The next day pun jadi driver lagi, bawak diorg jalan2 KL pulak. Kak Chah wanted to treat them at KLCC so we went to KLCC again. It’s good they came while I was on my break coz if not I wont be able to treat them coz I’ll be in Cyberjaya lah of course. Selalunya they came over while I was somewhere else so macam tak best seronok lah. Heheh..

Tomorrow there’ll be a gathering of my MRSM girlfriends. Cant wait to see them before my class starts this Monday L. Bosannye cuti dah habis. Nevermind, new trimester new hopes. ^_^v

       My laptop is back to serve me! But it’s still an old machine, with some defects still. I sent it to Toshiba on the first week of my break and later received a call from the engineer few days later while I was driving back after watching Sumolah alone at Times Square stating that the hard disk crashed, cooling system disfunction and he said that the dvd writer couldnt read his cd. Wo hoo.. thats a lot! He also said that the total cost for the replacement was RM1400++!! Waa, so expensive one. The dvd combo was 900 something, so I decided not to replace that and thank god it still functions a bit lah. Nevermind, if I wanna burn cds, I cant tumpang my housemates punya. Hehe. So the total cost is not as much as 1400. Ayah also said that he wanted to buy a desktop for home, so of course la latest desktop have the cd or even dvd burner so I can also burn at home. I thought I dont want to dera my laptop anymore but I just cant help it lah. Hehe, nak download tu, download ni, install tu install ni. Well, I’ll slow down later after ayah buy the desktop coz I can then dera that desktop pulak! Hoho.. just for the downloads je lah. 

     About my ear, well I did went to see the doc 3 times after the last entry. The first one was a day after my previous entry coz after I wrote the entry I went to the phone booth and called my bro and mengadu to him and he somehow told my parents and my parents called the doctor which actually the one who treated me for few years, not the current doc which i’ve been following up to. Well this doc is actually very busy coz he’s no more in the clinic as he’s now one of the big guy in the admin of a uni. He said that there were infections in my ear, and cleaned up a bit and prescribed some medication and asked me to meet him after my exams. Later I met him and the infections were still there and I did actually saw the fungus in my ear when he showed under the microscope and he gave me the same medication again and ask to meet him in 2 weeks time.

This morning was the the third time I met him. Well, actually I’m supposed to meet him yesterday but he was in Labuan pulak. Maybe he thought he’d be here yesterday but during the last minute he had to go to Labuan. Well, he’s quite busy and sometimes I felt guilty for bothering him. I met him like at 7.30 am in the morning - the clinic opened at 8.00 am so somehow he need to find a time before his works starts and the clinic opens. Oh ya, forgot to mention, on the 2nd appointment I asked him wether isnt any chance for me to regain my hearing but then he said that I have one good ear and my right ear’s lost is just.. and I somehow interrupt him and said that I hear almost nothing on my right. I guess he’s not concious of my hearing loss la.. and so does the other doc. They thought I just lost like few percent. So he asked me to do the audio test and he would see it on the next meeting. And yea, I lost like about 85% of my hearing on my right and the audiologist was so concern of my loss. She was so eager to ask me to try out the hearing aid and gave me a reference letter and the address where I can get the hearing aid in Brickfields. She said that since I’m on my break now might as well I go and try it out coz actually, my doc did not agree with the hearing aid coz he said there’d be interference between my normal ear and this audiologist said that there’s a new hearing aid which cross the hearing or whatever, i’m not quite sure actually but she said that it’ll suit my condition something like that lah. 

So this morning when he sees my audio test result, he said that there’ll be another surgery of reconstruction but only after 2-3 years(lambatnye lagi!) when my ear is really2 dry with no infections. Recently, since I have on and off infections, it’ll be hard for a reconstrucion coz it’ll tend to reject everything. So, I need to really take care of my ear from infections. Somehow, my room in Cyberjaya is actually very damp and there’s no direct sunlight into it since it’s facing north-south so I need to find a way to make it dry. There was actually some fungus growing in my room’s furniture especially on the woods. I’ve tried putting the Thirsty Hippo in my room but it didnt work that well. Maybe I’ve to put more sampai penuh bilik! hehe. And the doc suggested on the ionizer, and my dad - the big dryer! Haha, matilah bil lektrik tinggi, kang marah pulak housemates nnti. Maybe I’ll survey the ionizer first, how much power in consumed supaya bil letrik tak melambung tinggi just because of me. Hehe. But seriously, I need to take a really good care of my ear.

I asked the doc about the noise in my ear and will it dissapear soon coz my class will start next week and I’m afraid it’ll be disturbing for me to study. He said that that’s tinnitus. I actually did read an article about tinnitus last week in sunday star and they mentioned that its an ringing sound in ears caused by infections, long exposure of loud sounds etc..etc.. i forgot lah. hehe. Well he said the same thing and it actually did not answer my questions that much but nevermind. I actually wanted to know how did the sound appear due to the infections. I can find that in the internet. He also said Belajar jee.. dont worry too much about the noise and the hearing. Just concentrate on studies. There’s no cancer, the cholesteatoma which is the main desease that causes the damage has totally been removed, so dont worry too much. Reconstruction of the hearing will be done later. Just take a good care of your ear, keep it dry and so on.. Well I actually felt a bit relieved coz my questions were answered, almost.I think I just need to pop up the questions and have interest to knowing it coz previously I just let the doc to anything. when he ask how’s your ear, I just answer little bit. I was actually afraid to ask the questions, especially to the other doc coz he’s kinda garang when he answered my questions and that makes me lagi tak berani to ask. Furthermore today, Ayah was also there coz he knows the doc well so at first they were chit chatting about their matters and then Ayah pop my questions first since I did tell him of the qs and later I asked more. Maybe I look like I worried too much causing the doc to tell me that theres no cancer etc coz I can see the way to told me. Hehe, well I guess docs have a lot of other things to do that makes them to be like a bit garang in answering a cerewet patient especially docs in hospitals. Hehe, but i’m not that cerewet, I was always silent and this time round I ask questions like I tak puas hati and that day, I did asked the doc for me to do second opinion in other hospital and maybe he knows that I was so tak puas hati with my condition thus telling me these things for me not to worry much and not to make this thing a big thing for me. Just concentrate of what I’m doing and take a good care of my year. I’ll just wait for the day to come.